[Gifted bikini from SHEIN]

Classy women are always perceived as thin. You'll rarely see a fat classy woman in a movie or described in a book. Classy fat women don't exist according to the media and society. But I'm willing to rewrite the rule book.

[Gifted bikini from SHEIN]

Summer 2020.. a summer that none of us will ever forget. I spent summer 2020 mostly in lockdown, which meant I spent the hottest days of the year in my apartment on the sixth floor. High rises in the heat aren't an awful lot of fun – but there were a few positives to spending my days in a bikini, one positive in particular....

[Gifted dress from Collectif]

Lockdown has taught us all lots. I don't know about you, but for me, lockdown has been a learning curve. I have learnt so much about myself. I feel like I've grown up a lot in the space of five months. 

In the past five months I've really changed. I've changed the way I look at my body, the way I treat myself, the way I treat others, and the way I see my future. From learning to love myself more, to connecting deeper with friends – lockdown has really shown me what matters most.

Lockdown gave me an opportunity to change, so I grabbed it with both hands and thanked the Universe.
I didn't change my diet, I didn't change my appearance – I simply embraced and utilised everything I already had.


Friendships

Lockdown has really enabled me to figure out who my real friends are. I've been in touch with old friends, new friends and friends I've known both online and in real life for YEARS! Some friendships have developed into really special friendships that I'll cherish forever, and some friendships kind of diminished a few weeks into lockdown. 

Although it's sad that those friendships diminished, I'm still grateful for them. They were beautiful when they were real, but I now just look them as a lesson, and I thank them for showing me that keeping the friendship was no longer the best option. And most of all, I thank them for allowing me to find friendships that are real, supportive and long-lasting.

My outlook on love

At the start of lockdown (and multiple times throughout) I may have downloaded a few dating apps. They were great fun and I had a great time getting to know a few guys. But I now realise that finding love through a dating app really isn't me and in-line with my morals. That being said though, If anything does happen to become of any of the connections I've made in the future, post-lockdown/post-coronavirus – then I'm more than willing to mark it down as fate.


My body

Lockdown could have been a really negative experience in terms of body image, but for me it's been the complete opposite. In the beginning I was thinking of getting an exercise bike just to keep fit as I usually walk around 10,000–15,000 steps per day. But then I just decided to move when my body wanted to move. I find joyful movement so.. well.. joyful! I love nothing more than putting on a uplifting playlist, wearing some big 'ole granny pants and crop top, and dancing round my room making up silly routines. It's fun, keeps my blood pumping and keeps my mental health on some kind of good level. 

Lockdown has really taught me to embrace my body, my curves and the way I look at myself. I've posted and spoken about body positivity for the past five or so years, but I'd say 2020 is the year I have started to make waves online and in my own mind. Over the lockdown period I really began to find my feet with loving myself – weeks on end with no makeup, crop tops and big knickers really did me good. 

I now look at my body as a vessel that carries me through life, keeping me healthy and nourished. I look at my body as a beautiful thing – I really have learned to LOVE my body and I'm in love with that fact!


Lockdown has really changed me for the better. I look at life completely differently these days. From my friendship to my body, to my love life and to everything in between. The things I'm grateful for have changed, the things I take for granted have changed – this pandemic has changed the world in unimaginable ways, and it has also changed me too. 


Steal Mollie's Style

Mollie is wearing a gorgeous (gifted) 1950's style dress from Collectif. It's their super popular Caterina style (which is my all-time favourite style of dress), in the Caterina Ribbon Check Swing Dress. I adore their Caterina Dresses so much – the signature stretch, cinched in waist, button down to waist – it's a vintage dream!!



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